|Caleb in his Jersey|
I feel like the past 5 months after Caleb turned one have absolutely flown! I think part of it was because I was wishing away some of the months due to the horrible weather that we had. I am such an outside/sunshine person that the "late" winter that just kept hanging on this year was pretty miserable for me. However, I have also been spending time just watching and enjoying all the ways Caleb is changing and learning. It is simply amazing all of the new things he has learned in the past 5 months. He started walking, using utensils, started to understand all kinds of things like knowing where the vaccum goes, climbing up and down stairs, words like ball, outside, go-go and the list goes on and on. To see a child develop is one of the coolest things. I feel so blessed.
Another reason that I feel this way is because I know God has been working on my heart as well. I was convicted about a month ago that I was not content with where God had me in life. I love Caleb and my husband Matt and I was so thankful for everything but not at peace and content. I started to realize that this was an issue in my life and not pleasing to God. I was in a sense saying to Him, where you have me in life is not good enough. After being humbled about this and really starting to focus more on God's way and not my way, I have found so much more joy in every day. One thing in particular that is a symbol for me going forward with this continued journey of finding contentment are flowers. I have never been a big fan of flowers because I see them as something you spend your money on and then they die. However, in one of the Biblical Counseling sessions that I was sitting in on at our church, the pastor told the person to go that week and put flowers on their table. These flowers were a symbol and reminder of all the things that God has blessed us with. A flower is a beautiful creation by God and such a wonderful thing to remind us of His goodness. After I thought about this and with all that God has been teaching me through parenting, I have started to realize the simple beauty of life just like the simple beauty of a flower. This summer I hope to put many flowers in our home and on our table and enjoy them for what they are! ;)