Matt and I finally got to watch the movie, "October Baby" last night and would highly recommend it. It is such a good reminder that each baby is a true miracle and that God cares about the 'least of these.'
It also hit close to home because of the current season of our family...being a family of one child. I think I have mentioned this in my blog posts before but Caleb is a true miracle to us. We had a very difficult time conceiving a child and as we think about the future of our family, we have to wonder...will we be able to conceive another child?
I am currently finding it hard to adjust to this new stage of parenthood. At times I find myself bored. Caleb does not "need" me in the same ways he did in his first year of life but he still needs me to watch over him. He has a very short attention span and there are many things that I need to get done but am still not able to get done because he would either be into everything while I was doing it or I would get interrupted every 10 minutes or so. I like to take him places like the library, play areas, parks, etc. but that can also get a bit overwhelming and exhausting if I am not mentally and physically prepared.
The other aspect of this season that I find hard as an extreme extrovert is finding people in Mount Vernon or even in our church in Cedar Rapids that want to get together. Most people are either with no children, have a baby in their first year or have more than one child and are just naturally more busy because they have more things to do with more children. When we go out and about I am tempted to spend more money which I do not need to do. I keep asking myself, what is the best use of my time to glorify God? My family definitely comes first but there is still room to do other things as well. Many times I often think....maybe it will get better when Caleb is older and he can do more things? However, I don't want to wish these years away.
As a mom and also as a couple, Matt and I desire a deep community. We want to truly have relationships with other believers that will grow us, keep us accountable and help us to process life through the lens of God's word, The Bible. Have you found that community? A great passage from Hebrews reads:
"Therefore, brothers and sisters, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, 20 by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body, 21 and since we have a great priest over the house of God, 22 let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. 23 Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. 24 And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, 25 not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching." (Hebrews 10:19-25)