Yes....it is true! God has chosen to grow our family once again...this time biologically! As most of you know, we have struggled with infertility off and on for the past 9 years. We always said, we would be open to another child naturally if God blessed us again after the adoption of our 2nd and 3rd sons. So...here we are...7 years later with a baby on the way. I am due in late December and we are excited!
I have to say, when we found out, I was excited, nervous, worried and not sure I can really swing this mom of 4 kids gig. Truthfully, I can't, but I do know that God's plans are best and what he wants from me is daily dependence on Him. For several years early in our marriage, there were times I even wondered if I wanted children. As I processed through the realization of all the things I would miss and the truth that children are truly a blessing from the Lord, we started down the journey of building a family.
Parenting has been the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and there are many days that I struggle on a minute by minute basis to choose to love my children and point them to Jesus. Being a parent is self-sacrificing in so many ways. I am constantly asking for God to give me wisdom and understanding with our children as they make me angry and frustrated when they seem to make such unwise choices that cause them pain or more work for Matt and I. However, the reality is, Matt and I are the only ones that have the opportunity to love, serve and show our kids that we are all sinners in need of our Savior Jesus.
So...with all that, we are excited to welcome another blessing into the Townsley family. Are we all praying for a girl??!......maybe. :)
Just like us all here on this earth, God is never finished with changing, growing and refining us to be more like his son Jesus until we leave this earth. Parenting and having another child is where God wants me to be right now so that I can fully depend and trust Him even more during this time in our lives.
We covet your prayers for our family. Adoption is a beautiful thing but brings a lot of different dynamics into a family. Pray that we would be intentional on loving both our biological and adoptive children equally and understanding their needs. Pray for unity in our family and that we would always show Grace to our children, just as God has shown us grace.