Monday, May 20, 2019

Struggling To Find That Long Term Perspective.....

Matt and I look at some individuals that we have been blessed to know and continue to know in our lives and see that they have such a great long term perspective on life or as we would say, they are in it for the long haul. :) 

I would say that this is the biggest struggle in every aspect of my life right now.  Everything is so chaotic and my mind, heart and desires are constantly grasping at what I think I want here in the now without being able to really focus on the truth that those thoughts are just temporary and not long term.  Have you ever been in a period or season of your life like that? 

The deep struggle with this type of approach is that sometimes you are motivated to do things and sometimes not.  For example, most days I get up ready to go work out but as the day wains on and I get more tired of picking up toys, socks, changing diapers, feeding children, I become less and less motivated to do much.  In fact, most days I am just waiting for bedtime.  However, since I am such a morning person, I do not want to do much at all when the kids finally go to bed.  The struggle is that I would love to do some of the things I want to do during the day but instead my days are filled with constant needs. 

I know I am right where I need to be....in our home, influencing and caring for the four little blessings and my wonderful husband and yet it truly is an hour by hour, day by day choice to find the joy!  I think back to when we just had our one son and wonder why it was so different?  I think it must be that we added three more children so quickly and also that we have two very young children right now, an almost 2 year old and an almost 5 month old.  However, I don't know any different so that could be off too? 

When I have some quiet moments either at church or some time every so often at home, I read my Bible and it refocuses me on what is truly important.  I know where my hope comes from, but every day it is a struggle to keep that in the forefront of my mind.  Thanks for following along with some of the random thoughts and desires that are going on in my heart and mind right now. 

Constantly thankful for this verse: 

22The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;[a]
    his mercies never come to an end;
23 they are new every morning;
    great is your faithfulness.

Lamentations 3:22-23 

1 comment:

  1. Oh yes, I've been there - particularly last year as we dealt with the details of the house fire, the emotions of my brother passing, struggling with an answer to our call to missions, and our tight-knit church campus closing unexpectedly -- all within a period of about 6 months (on top of the usual routines and issues with 3 kids). The psalm that has repeatedly brought me peace and comfort was Ps 46:10.

    “Be still, and know that I am God.
    I will be exalted among the nations,
    I will be exalted in the earth!”

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