Monday, August 26, 2019

Are You Willing?!?

I was having coffee with a mentor and friend that other day and something she said really struck me.  She said that one of the things people have told her that they appreciate about her is that she is willing.  She might not have the skill set for things but she has a willing heart to help, give it a shot and try something to help.  The definition of willingness is, 'the quality or state of being prepared to do something; readiness.'

It says in 1 Peter 3:15,

15 But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, 

As someone that has followed Jesus and been surrounded by the Godly people for a good chunk of my life, I have a lot of head knowledge. Perhaps like many other Christians, if I don't allow God to penetrate my heart and mind and truly take a hold of that knowledge, then it is just knowledge...without action.  

Until the past 4 years or so, I have been an extremely busy person.  I was involved in numerous sports, played in orchestra and sang in choir and show choir in high school.  I then continued on in that path in college and as an extrovert, continued that path of busyness into married life as well.  I have always liked the idea of having a schedule of being available like Jesus walk alongside people.  Now looking back, I believe some of the reasons that I kept myself so busy was for selfish reasons.  An extrovert is energized by people and therefore I was likely getting satisfaction in life in spending time with other people and ensuring they liked me.  Not that we don't need human interaction and good, caring relationships in our life, we know God made us to need that but when it replaces our need for God or is our identity, than it is sinful. 

When we had our first child, God started to tear down some of my selfish heart and desires but as I see now it was just the beginning.  Parenting has definitely been the most difficult thing I have ever done.  I have expectations of how things are going to go and most of the time it does not go that way and then you are thinking what the heck and the anger can rise!  It is very draining, day in and day out and yet as I am seeing these past 6 months, if I am willing their is joy!  The greatest thing we can do in our life is to raise up children that know and love God.  It does not matter what amazing honor or promotion we have received at work, how big of house we have, how many boats we own, or what kind of clothing we wear. 

Another reason I believe that being willing has been hard is because of being afraid to fail.  This is also known as pride.  Every single person (including me) created after Adam and Eve struggles with pride, just on different levels.  

In 1 Peter5:5-6 it says:

“God opposes the proud
    but shows favor to the humble.”
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time."

A humble heart recognizes that everything we have came from God.  Instead of life, we deserve death.  

My prayer going forward this year is to trust God and be willing.  So far, it has been a freeing experience and I am excited to see what God has in store.  I know he is a good, good father.  Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that he would give us 4 amazing children to love and gently lead towards to him.  Are you in this journey of being willing?!?  

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